My best friend from college had her baby on Monday. My other friends are having twins. My friend from Missouri had a baby a few weeks ago. I am thrilled to pieces for them and know they'll both be great moms and their babies will be so loved.
Girls I went to high school with have 2 or 3 children already! It's just craziness. I'm noticing that I'm falling more and more behind everyone else.
Don't get me wrong, I'd rather have me all in one piece emotionally than stuck in a horrible marriage with a rotten husband and kids just like him - ADD and allergic to EVERYTHING. But I feel left out of the game. Last one picked for kickball. It's grade school all over again. Seriously, you plow one kid over in soccer and you are branded as a wild card the rest of your life in gym class!
But I'm not trying to throw a pity party for myself. It's like on "Julie & Julia" when Julia Child's sister who was married after her is pregnant and she is so happy but still feels like a yutz for not being pregnant herself. Ya know? [If not, go watch the movie. It's great.] Happy and excited but just a little bummed at the same time.
I love babies. I love squishy thighs. Lower lips and tongues that seem to have a running faucet. Bright eyes. Feathery hair. Little buns. The smell of a freshly washed baby. The itty bitty shoes and socks. The bows and ribbons. The squawks and high pitched sounds they emit. The way they get top heavy and just topple over. The peals of laughter at raspberries on their bellies. How they are easily entertained. How they are so incredibly unaware of everyone else around them but mom. How everything must go in their mouths to be marked as their property. I love that I can hand them back to their mom and smile when they've pooped out their diaper.
what was I saying? oh yeah...
I am SO excited and glad for my friends. They will be fabulous mothers. I am SOOOO incredibly happy I don't have kids from a previous marriage. I am SO glad I don't have kids while I'm trying to work 9 hours a day and date Alex and find time to relax or start going to the gym. There's just no time. I admire all you women who can balance life and work and kids and husband and meals and shopping and decorating and visiting friends and throwing parties and serving in primary. You're incredible!
Happy baby day to Celine and Sam and Janet. Happy un-baby day to me. Happy Wednesday to all who are in the thick of it all.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
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You and me both, sister. You and me both.
That part in Julie and Julia made me cry! Mostly because I completely understood how she felt. I actually just did a blog yesterday about how our babies got here and looking back on it all, ti was totally worth it. The part about having kids that are ADD and allergic to everything was hilarious :) Even though you don't have to worry about wee ones yet, I can't wait until you are a momma someday :) And this post makes me happy because it's crazy to think that I'm finally one of the pregnant ones!
You WILL be a mommy someday CW!! And you WILL BE AWESOME!!!
And seriously, what an incredible blessing that you didn't have kids with A... Now you can be completely rid of him. No every other holidays. No visits back and forth. No worrying about what he'd be teaching them while you weren't there. None of that!!
They say good things come to those who wait. Just watch, you'll get the perfect child who sleeps 8 hours a night from day 1, never spits up or blows out diapers and will be happy and pleasant while teething! ;) Okay, so maybe you'll just get a perfect little angel from God who still does those other things! Either way, I think that you are exactly as the Lord wants you and in exactly the place he has planned for you right now.
Love you dude!! And miss you tons!
This was a sweet post. I admire you for having such a good attitude about something that can be extremely difficult for women. And I think you're right-- having kids through all that mess would have been so hard! Enjoy your sleep while you can, cause babies are COMIN! :) You'll make a great mom.
You are not alone Becka. This is something that I struggle with on a daily basis. I try very hard to be 100% happy for my friends and family when they are expecting but a small part of me wishes it was my turn.
I have learned to enjoy the things that my friends and sisters with kids do not get to enjoy. I have time for myself, my husband, and my friends. I can sleep through the night without screaming children. And when I do get sad, I go home and visit my sister and her kids. They remind me that although I may not be a mom, I a great Aunty Beks!!! :)
I haven't read you blog in so long! I love it. You always make me laugh.
It's good to find the up side of every situation.
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